"When the wisdom of the heart replaces the chatter of the mind, the power of love flows forth." -Marianne Williamson

Stepping into her power!

Todays post is a continuation on yesterdays. I have been really feeling a lot the past few weeks and there is a pattern. I struggle with feeling unworthy, feeling like I am a burden, and I am extremely hard on myself. I have been feeling these things because life has really changed for me the last few years. I have had to step back from everything and focus on healing. My kundalini symptoms have been very difficult. They are improving but I still deal with a lot of fatigue, dizziness, light headedness, pain in my head, my eyes, and in different areas of my body. I am also not driving much because I become very ungrounded in the car. I keep telling myself I should be farther along, I should be driving more, I should be doing more and leaving my house more. But the truth is I need to be exactly where I am and doing exactly what I am doing. The kundalini awakening is a transformation, my body is being upgraded and rewired. My nervous system is open and sensitive to everything. I am sensitive to lights, sounds, being around a lot of people and I am not interested in a lot of the things that I used to be. It seems like we are programmed to just keep doing and going. When we are forced to just stop, it can be hard for us. So I am learning to be more gentle on myself.

These beliefs actually put me in a state of resistance and then I start to feel worse. When I am feeling these thoughts, I am actually denying who I really am. The feelings of unworthiness, that I am a burden, I am a failure, I am too much, I can't do this... These thoughts are not the truth. So I am learning to catch these thoughts and replace them with true thoughts. I am also getting curious about these thoughts. Where did this thought that I am unworthy come from? Why do I feel this way? I am a child of the universe, of course I am worthy!! I replace these thoughts with the truth. And the truth is I am worthy, I am amazing, I am joy, I am grace, I am love, I can do this, I AM DOING THIS!!! I am also learning that I can ask my higher self or the universe to release these thoughts. And it helps!

I also find these affirmations helpful.

The Truth of Who I AM Affirmations

• I AM a magnificent creation of the Universe.

• I AM deeply and unconditionally loved by the Universe.

• I AM worthy because the Universe created me.

• I gently release that which no longer serves my greatest good.

• I allow the loving light of the Universe to heal my mind, body, and spirit.

  
  

Coming into the present moment is very helpful when you are experiencing thoughts like these or any other form of resistance.

"As soon as you honor the present moment, life begins to flow with joy and ease."

-Eckhart Tolle

A great practice I have learned is:

*When you feel yourself in resistance, trying to figure things out or in a state of overwhelm...

1. Take 3 deep breaths and come back to the present moment - All of your power is in this now moment, this present moment.

2. Ask yourself - "What would bring me more joy, more love, more freedom, more peace right now?" "What did I enjoy doing as a child?" I like to play with my art supplies, journal, or go outside.

3. Have fun with this, play, laugh, create, explore and imagine all the possibilities.

4. Allow yourself to incorporate this practice day by day in the ways that are enjoyable for you.

5. Be gentle with yourself.

   
   
   
   

   I believe that everything that comes up is asking for love. The unworthiness is asking for love, the shame is asking for love, the guilt is asking for love, the regret is asking for love, the fear is asking for love... And most of the time we don't know how to give these feelings love or even how to love ourselves. We start feeding into these thoughts and then they become our beliefs.

   
   

   This is where we start. Tell yourself "I am so sorry that I have been so hard on you, I am so sorry I haven't known how to love you until now, I am here now."

   
   

   These are all acts of self love, this is how we begin to heal...

   
   

   "Whatever arises, love that."

   -Matt Kahn